Lost in Lies

Lost in Lies

What lies beneath these pattering feet?
Only stones to throw at this life’s deceit…
I dreamed of a world with silver lined air
But live in a world of filth and despair…
Crying in my sleep… is there no way of finding peace
Continuously I get spit on my feet…so I use my tears to sterilize this deceit…
In my mind I am dead…ruined by an overload of lies I was fed
I create a dark place and hide my face in the sand…and breathe in the despair that has been created
down there…
This deprival of fresh air… raping me of sublime memories I used to hold dear
As my soul craves for a love that is evidently found nowhere…
My mind a heap of trash…bundled up inside
Compacted and engorged with the stench of lies and flies that creep up on me and multiply…
I cry out… but my words never leave my soul
They only take wind with the flies and lies.. to return another day and steal what’s remaining in my eyes
as my heart cries…
My face now stained with salt… a result of the crystallization of my thought
I feel the burn as the rivers cross my cheek… scarring an impression on my dreams as I sleep…
Never waking... I am now smothered in the darkness of this nightmare
It chokes the sanity and breath from me…leaving only a blank stare…
I drag my spirit across these hot coals
While trying to comfort what’s left of my soul…
My life is now drenched with rain of doubts
Pouring acidic questions around me... and I can’t find my way out…
So I wait under this umbrella of time
Each day that passes corrodes and drags away what’s left of my mind…
Through these eyes you can see a black hole
Reflecting the emptiness now found in my soul…
My heart is bleeding and is now corrupt
Slashed by deceit but I must not give up…
Still climbing life’s ladder of infinite steps
Will there ever be a light at the end of this test?
I try to get up but land face first in the dirt
Where lies swim like demons creating their own sea on this earth…
I reach hard for a ledge but barely can hold
My body so weak and burdened by the lies you have told…
My desire for happiness is an eternal torment
Bruising my soul and leaving huge dents…
I never dreamed it would be this way
Learning to live with this throbbing pain…
Suffocating by the secrets you would keep
My heart screams and rants to be set free…
I’ve let your lies isolate and consume my soul
Leaving it vulnerable, alone and cold…
Trusting in words that never come true
Not being able to put my trust in you…
So I spend my days in loneliness
Keeping this rage from bursting out in pain and madness…
Little by little I fear I have lost myself
I hate the lies that you would tell…
Confusing and drowning my mind in a cruel sea of thought
Dragging us apart and taking with it my heart…
My senses lose focus when I think of your lies
And my memory reminds me of heart aching cries…
The flowers that now don’t come into bloom
The tears that hinder me from seeing the moon…
How could you let these lies grow in my head?
Beating me down, stirring up nightmares while I lay in bed…
I feel so lost and trapped in this desert of a mind
Seeking the truth that was left behind…
My heart now so empty and torn into
Like a knife twisting deep inside, I want so badly to again believe in you…!

--Lisa Roberts
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