Tug of War

Tug of War


At a loss for words..
my mind constantly replaying..
the lost language of love..
you now think its absurd..
your vision must be blurred..
reality to you is unseen or heard..

You play with my heart..
and my mind with no guilt..
the rose that used to bloom..
now wilts..
all around it..
crumbling the life we built..

Empty pleas of "I Love You's"..
with no meaning behind them..
just coughted up..
empty words filled with phlegm..
my soul feels the mayhem..
replaying "sorry's" like an anthem..

Dont you see the pain in my eyes..
how you tore me up inside..
my pain I can no longer hide..
its killing the strength in my stride..
finding true love in your words..
getting harder to find..
you are like Jekyl n Hyde..
reality gets misapplied..
your never ending slide of deception..
pushing the truth aside..
in a divide..
I must confide..
but without trust, how can love reside..

The stench of lies..
I can smell it..
I feel it within..
Deception crawls all over my skin..
heart in a never ending death spin..
my sanity wearing thin..

Manipulation is your strong suit..
spoiling my fruit..
the pain nonacute..
heart and mind you steady loot..
I try to compute..
steady putting on the combat boots..

Its apparent you dont want me no more..
vows, love, loyalty all gone out the door..
everything you ever swore..
left on the floor..
you find too much pleasure at the candy store..
leaving my mind in a state of war..
heart bleeds at its core..
ripped and torn..

Laying low..
inside my mind..
while all around me turbulence flows..
why dont you just let me go..
do you find pleasure in torturing my soul..
never truely seeing the pain I undergo..
In my heart..
Im alone..
no longer safe in the hands I used to call home..
left in the darkness..
now barricated is my soul..

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By: Lisa Roberts