Masks

Masks

Multiple personalities thats my name.. so many different faces but all one in the same..
I put on a smile to keep up with the rest..while hiding the real me cause she's tired and depressed..
This fake grin of mine should be replaced with tears..drowning myself in the struggle I've endured over the years..
This mask that I wear shields me from questions that might get thrown my way..and the "keep your head up" that feeds this shame..

Multiple personalities thats my name..each mask that I wear covers my multitudes of pain..
A freakier me in the bed..to feed the lust found in his head..
Who will I be tonight for him.. a dirty lil slut that is submissive and cowards within..?
I try to be me, but its never good enough..my alter ego is who he wants..
She makes him feel like a man with her special touch..feeding his craving has me in a clutch..
I hide behind this mask but inside fighting to come out..but the lust of "being wanted" keeps winning and I am again seeing through this mask of doubt..
Doubting if I will ever catch his eye.. I want him to yearn for the "real me" found deep inside hidden behind this mask of mine..

Multiple personalities thats my name..hiding my kids from the struggle Im faced with each day..
This mask is the worst of all.. not allowing me to share with them how mommy stands tall..
This mask covers my distrust in love..not showing them how to put faith in above..
Shielding them from my daily regress..keeping their eyes and ears from discovering my stress..
My hopes for a better day sometimes hides this mask away..allowing my kids to see the real mommy that desperately wants to stay..
But this life keeps throwing its muck at me.. so I constantly cover up instead of remaining free..

Multiple personalities thats my name..these masks I wear are worn and full of stains..
Stains from my tears that fall behind each mask..wanting to break free has been my daily task..
But these painted faces that cover my pain are the only thing keeping me going from day to day giving the illusion that I am sane..

>Lisa Roberts
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